This week as I sat down to write a guest post for Jennifer Jordan at Everyday Glow I realized I’ve never completely shared my back-story of how I became a Group Exercise Instructor. My Everyday Glow post is all about what motivates me. Naturally, I talk about my love affair with music but it really comes down to this: I love my job, I have found my passion in health/wellness/fitness, and that is what motivates me every day. But it wasn’t always like that…
My story starts a several years ago. I had a nursing job, a comfortable life, with very few things to complain about. Maybe I needed to lose a few pounds, maybe I needed to get more sleep, but for the most part, I was satisfied with my existence. And then, as things in life often happen…BAM! Something bad and dark and ugly happened in my life.
I’m not going to go into the details of what this was. It doesn’t matter. Just know that this event had enough impact that I was left reeling. Everything I thought I knew as truth was being questioned. I felt un-tethered. This was the kind of event that changes you and changes your perception of everything.
I could have stayed in bed under the covers (there were many days I thought about it.) I could have used it as an excuse to be reckless….say F-it to life. Instead, it became an opportunity to take a raw, un-filtered look at who I was and how I was living. When you strip away all illusions and delusions, you are left with the truth. And I didn’t like what I saw.
I started working out a little more. Sweating and breathing hard, and forgetting, if just for 45 minutes, about the crap that was taking place in my life. I rediscovered Spinningâ and it was like a homecoming! On that bike I started to feel authentic and, dare I say it…happy. I could leave my baggage at the studio door. It was me, and my bike. I had even found a hint of empowerment.
I could push my body hard. Raise the intensity, achieve higher heart rates. And it felt amazing. The more I took Spinningâ classes, the more whole and un-broken I felt. I was going to survive. But how, I wondered could I make this feeling last? I had to make this a more regular part of my life. I wanted to teach it!
Through Spinningâ, yoga and meditation, I started to see choices and options where previously, there had been none.
If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change—Wayne Dyer
It may seem like a small thing to you, but in my world it was huge: I registered to become a certified Spinningâ instructor. I was scared, I had a lot of doubt, but I also knew how amazing I felt on a Spinningâ bike and wanted to share that with others. I became an instructor, and started teaching one single class a week, and it was awesome.
That one Spinning class (I still teach it…Saturdays at 10am) turned into many other classes, and eventually, into my current career. It is worthwhile to look back at what was arguable the lowest point in my life and be grateful. That’s right; I am appreciative of the struggle! If that “bad thing” had not have happened, I would likely still be sleep walking through life.
Thank you Universe for kicking my ass and tearing me down…I’ve grown into a much stronger person than I ever thought possible!
If you haven’t already done so, check out Jennifer’s blog on Everyday Glow. She is an amazing person & has provided numerous sparks of inspiration for me in terms of both food and exercise.